Journey

Walking, is therapeutic. I left my house in a flurry of clothes, lecture notes and tears this afternoon and walked from my house all the way to bus 15 bus stop. Let's just say, life's kinda rocky at home right now.

Studied in the library all day, then went to Macs after the library closed. Left Macs at 11pm and walked all the way home with Cindy. Like I said, walking is therapeutic.

Something Marc said recently kinda hit me. It's like, I'm standing on this platform. And I'm admiring and watching the train, but I'm not boarding it. The train ride itself would be pleasant, but the destination is nowhere at the moment. So now do I board the train, or leave the platform altogether?

Or perhaps I will only find out about the destination after I've boarded the train? I am tempted to board the train, but at the same time, I fear boarding the train. Fear of taking those few little steps onto the train that leads to an unknown place or perhaps even nowhere at the moment. Reality, practicality and fear holds me back from boarding the train.

So here I am. Stuck. I'm stuck on the platform.

God, what should I do?